Mike's Grand World

It’s funny in life how things change.  One day, everything seems to be going according to plan.  The next, it’s like trying to drive a ship through a hurricane.

I am not a good captain.  My ship is in the middle of a hurricane and I don’t know how to right it. I don’t even know how to ask to help. I make more mistakes than I do things right. Sometimes, I wonder what is wrong with me.

There has to be an end to the hurricane… but what will I find when I get there?  Peace? Pain? Love? Hurt? I just don’t know. I know what I want to find… but will I ever find it? I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t have my doubts. I have the feeling that it’ll be just like every other time, I find that which I did not want to find.

I often wished that life were more simple, like me. And that in school, they’d hand out a “Guide to Life” pamphlet, then maybe I wouldn’t be so lost all of the time.  How can such a smart guy like me be so dumb and ignorant?

I guess that’s enough self-loathing for one day.  It’s time for me to head back to Georgia and prepare my house for the next phase of my life…selling my house.

Well, there are certainly many reasons to stay.

1.) Friends and co-workers. In the years here, I have met lots of people here at work and a neighbor or two. I have made several good friendships and those I will miss. However, through the magic of the internet, people are never too far away.

2.) Major sports teams. Atlanta Braves. Atlanta Thrashers. Georgia Force. Atlanta Falcons. Atlanta Hawks. All major leagues are represented.

3.) AMS. Even though I have only been to 1 race at AMS (and seem to schedule my out of town trips on AMS dates…), I can go at any time.

4.) Six Flags. Again, I have only been twice in my 7 years here, but I can pack up and head down there at any time.

5.) Concerts. I have seen so many bands here that would never tour in my hometown. Megadeth, Dream Theater, Slayer, Fear Factory, Eric Clapton (though I missed this show), Paul McCartney (missed this one, too), AC/DC, Roger Waters (on May 22!), Queensryche, King’s X, and more…

Yet, there are many compelling reasons to leave Atlanta

1.) Family. This goes without saying. I am the only one in my family to stray away.

2.) Friends. Some I have had for years. Some I have become re-acquainted with through the internet.

3.) Too many people in Atlanta. Traffic just getting to the mall is getting heavier everyday.

4.) Hometown. Where I grew up. It’s where my heart is.

5.) Social life. Even though, I do have a nice social life here… it could be so much more in my hometown… because it is my hometown.

6.) A bit simpler life. Everything here just seems more complicated. I can’t really explain it. I guess it’s the everyday grind of life in a big city. That being said, I am rarely in the city of Atlanta, so I don’t even see the daily grind that the people do that work downtown. I have never been a big city guy. Yet, I am not a small city guy, either. I like the middle-sized city. One that has the conveniences of the big city, yet doesn’t have the problems of the big city.

Yes, like Sonny (the robot from I, Robot), I am unique.

From my views on life, love, sex, music, movies, games, politics, and even religion. From the way I dress, eat, think, drive, live, and act. I am sarcastic, witty, and have an odd sense of humor.

All of these and my attitude make me more unique that most people I know.

These can be seen in my writings including this blog, my poetry, my MySpace blog, and even my GameSpot blog.

Or am I kidding myself and am just as ordinary as the masses? I would like to think not. I don’t want to be like everybody else, I just want to be me.