It’s so much easier to find fault in others than to find fault in yourself. This applies to all aspects of our lives. I am now learning how to see my own faults and there are plenty.
Some say, “Mike, you are too hard on yourself.” And while that might be true to a certain extent, I feel like I am just being honest with myself. If I can’t be honest with myself, then who can I be honest with? So, I can say then that I might be “brutally honest with myself”… ???
I am a loner. That’s what I am. I keep to myself most of the time. I wear headphones at work to block out other people. I wear headphones at the gym to block out other people. I never say “hi” or “goodbye” except to whomever is working at the front desk. I only goto lunch with the same crew. If they can’t go or go somewhere I that I don’t like, I goto lunch by myself.
I like myself… In fact, I love myself. There is nobody else in this world I would rather be than myself (well, maybe Cash Warren… j/k!).
On MySpace I have 168 friends. 80 bands/musicians; 7 comedians; 3 podcasts; 1 Tv Show; 1 University; 15 internet/tv celebrities; 1 game console; 1 organization; 59 are friends. So, out of 168 “friends” 35% of them are friends…
I love my family and my friends… and yes, even those of you I don’t know well or even at all… but you did bother to ask to be my friend on MySpace and so, that includes you as well.
I have only a few close friends because I choose it to be that way. I believe in quality over quantity. I am not popular nor do I want to be.
I believe in order to make others happy, one must be happy themselves. This is where I fail.
When I go to a bar, I don’t float around and meet people, particularly girls. I lack self-confidence. I am not a good looking man, but I do clean up well. I just enjoy having a beer or two with my friends and then going home.
I am very close to my family. My mom, in particular, because I am the only child she had with my father and I am sure that I am a reminder of him. She has several health problems that requires her to take several pills at different times during the day. She is diabetic and has COPD for which she has to take 4 breathing treatments a day. All of this just to keep herself alive.
I have two brothers, both married and both had 2 daughters.
When I need to think or really concentrate, I need absolutely no distractions. No TV, no internet, no phone, and no music. I need it to be quiet. That goes for home and work. When I get stuck on a problem at work, off come the headphones, even though most of the people I sit around annoy me…. I can’t have the music on when I am trying to figure out a hard problem and most of the time I am too proud to ask for help. I would rather figure it out on my own or find resources on the internet before I ask. I have a relatively low skill set for being in “technology.”
I am not sure I want another “computer” job unless it were writing about technology, however, I live in the wrong part of the country for that. I would have to live in San Francisco or New York and I really have no desire to live in either particularly New York. Atlanta is small compared to NY.
I like the idea of Nerds on Site…
I am not a mean person or go out of my way to hurt people (particularly girls), but I have learned that I do it just the same. I think I lack that part of the brain (like Jim said in American Pie) or I lack real social skills. Possibly, a combination of both?
I am not an “idealist” but I am a “realist.”
I have learned that I am selfish and very self-centered; however I am not a bad person.
I am materialistic… at least when it comes to technology products. I won’t buy new cookware, but I will buy the latest tech products. Why? Because cookware, while important, doesn’t hold much interest with me, but the latest in HD technology… well, show me!
Much of this describes a part of me that most of you would have never known. If after reading this, you do not wish to be my friend any longer, please delete me but tell me first… I won’t go on some internet rampage but I will accept it.
