{"id":8,"date":"2007-02-15T09:44:03","date_gmt":"2007-02-15T02:44:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/?p=8"},"modified":"2007-08-03T13:17:45","modified_gmt":"2007-08-03T18:17:45","slug":"i-don%e2%80%99t-wanna-grow-up%e2%80%a6","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/?p=8","title":{"rendered":"I don&#8217;t wanna grow up!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Where do I start? While I was at lunch today, I thought of a what I wanted to say here.<\/p>\n<p>I guess I can say that I am 33 year-old kid. I am sort of a mix of Andy (the 40 year-old virgin) and Tim &#8220;the Toolman&#8221; Taylor. I like to goof and be silly and I also have &#8220;more video games than teenaged Asian kid.&#8221; But I am also serious. Maybe I don&#8217;t dress like a normal 33 year-old. Maybe I am too old for the t-shirt and Megadeth t-shirt (since I am not in the band). But that&#8217;s what and who I am. I can&#8217;t change that because I&#8217;d only be lying to myself. So, I could change the way I dress or the way I look, but I would be lying to myself and projecting a false image of myself.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe the way I act or dress would make one think that I am not a responsible adult. Well, this could not be any further from the truth. Having moved here to the Metro-Atlanta area after never living on my own before, it was a real eye-opener. From no real responsibility to being responsible for keeping a roof over my head and food in my belly. And for those who know me, I don&#8217;t look like I have missed a meal!<\/p>\n<p>I am also a geek, a nerd, and a hard-ass. Computers and electronic toys and video games are things I enjoy. Perhaps, I really don&#8217;t want to grow up. Is that why I have never met the right girl and fallen in love at least once in my life? I take the philosophy of Dallas in &#8220;The Fifth Element&#8221; when i say, &#8220;I don&#8217;t want a million girls, I just want one.&#8221; And I hope to find that one sometime in the not-so-distant future. I can&#8217;t imagine going my whole life without that feeling.<\/p>\n<p>While I am confident in who I am, I am always self-conscience of my looks. While I am not Brad Pitt or a young Tom Selleck or even Sean Connery (young or old), I am not ugly. Sometimes, I will say it or sometimes I will feel like it, but I know it&#8217;s not true. I do suffer from low self-esteem. I have been going to the gym for more than a year and I enjoy it and I have lost 20 pounds and gained a little muscle, too.<\/p>\n<p>So, who am I? I am everybody and I am nobody, but whoever I am\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6\u00e2\u20ac\u009dto know me is to love me. Because no matter what, I love myself, even if sometimes I don&#8217;t like myself.<\/p>\n<p>[And yes, apparently, I get my philosoplies from movies and TV shows.]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Where do I start? While I was at lunch today, I thought of a what I wanted to say here. I guess I can say that I am 33 year-old kid. I am sort of a mix of Andy (the &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/?p=8\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mmolenda.com\/oldblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}