[no, I am not going to do six parts\u2026]<\/p>\n
So, why am I so hard on myself? It\u2019s the only way I know how to be.\u00a0 It\u2019s just that simple.\u00a0 I wished I had a more compelling answer, but I don\u2019t.<\/p>\n
One thing that may cause the \u201casshole\u201d label is that I am hard to get to know (but to know me is to love me, I truly believe this).\u00a0 I have a shell around me that is hard to get through.\u00a0 Every time I get hurt, and I do, I put up another layer.\u00a0 It\u2019s kind of like \u201c99 layers of Mike on the wall, 99 layers of mike, peel one back, 98 layers of Mike on the wall\u2026\u201d\u00a0 This, probably, is a one thing that rubs people the wrong way\u2026<\/p>\n
People don\u2019t seem to realize that I am quite an emotional person.\u00a0 When I get cut\u2026I bleed.\u00a0 When I get hurt\u2026I cry.\u00a0 I don\u2019t let too many people inside my \u201cbubble\u201d because inevitably, I get hurt and then I shut them out and add that new layer making it harder for the next person to get in and harder for me to get out.\u00a0 So much so, that even my closest friends don\u2019t know it all.\u00a0 There is a few people that I\u2019d like to let in but it seems as if they don\u2019t want to come in\u2026 They\u2019d rather stay on the outside\u2026and in a way I don\u2019t blame them.\u00a0 But once you start to peel those layers away, you find that true person that I am.\u00a0 And that person is the humble, loving, caring, funny, witty guy that I know I truly am\u2026\u00a0 so few see that.\u00a0 So few want to see that.\u00a0 That\u2019s why the layers still exist\u2026<\/p>\n
[In fact, I wrote 2 poems, \u201cIn My Bubble\u201d and \u201cIn My Bubble Part II\u201d and also one called \u201cIn My Corner\u201d that explain a lot of what goes inside my head.]<\/p>\n
I wrote a blog post in February called \u201cFrom The Heart\u201d that is very telling of how I feel.\u00a0 I know not a lot of people read this blog.\u00a0 But if you are reading it, then I know you care.\u00a0 And that makes me feel good to know that somebody cares.<\/p>\n
[I had an entire response in my head in the car coming home from the gym, but when I sat down to write this, I only remember bits and pieces.\u00a0 If only I could write and drive\u2026]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
[no, I am not going to do six parts\u2026] So, why am I so hard on myself? It\u2019s the only way I know how to be.\u00a0 It\u2019s just that simple.\u00a0 I wished I had a more compelling answer, but I … Continue reading